Shades of Love

I stared out through the glass; head tilted against the train window. I was searching for a thought to grasp onto, one out of many running through my mind. It was silly of me to be surprised at the one I chose.

The pain instantly found its way into my chest, causing me to wince. At times, I had to ask myself if I enjoyed it. It was something I’d put myself through more frequently. Patiently, eyes closed, I whispered. Hold on, it will pass, just wait it out. Continue reading

Denial or Acceptance?

He sat in shock by the pain of betrayal and speratation as his eyes filled with tears. Looking around the empty room, he thought its best to sit here and watch his word burn. Razors to wrist, the fan and the rope or the traffice on the roads, all had crossed his mind.

He was on the verge of meltdown but before he could there were questions in his mind he wanted answers to.  He wanted to know if it was that easy for her to walk away. He wanted to stare into her eyes and know if it is hurting her ,taking her breath away like his. But that moment was long gone. “Please tell me that i cannot love you anymore”, the last he could say before she left. Broken, hurt, adandoned, just watching his life wash away. The pain was excruciating, felt like it was crushing his soul.

But she was gone forever, leaving nothing but the memories. Memories that he will drag, memories that will haunt him forever.

 

आँखों में नमी थी , दिल में कमी
हम मुस्कुराते रहे फिर भी
क्युकी उनके चेहरे पर हंसी थी

 

“Every night…

“Like every night, I once again sit at my computer staring at the screen. A blank screen stares back at me, harsher than my self-loathing. I want to cry but I can’t cry anymore; the tears have dried up. All I can do is let the sobs come, my shoulders rolling under their weight, breaths ragged, throat sore and eyes dry. “

Midnight Rush of Emotions

The only thing that I did wrong was to do everything that you ever asked for. I just wished that you could have done the same for me.”

It happens to people, at times, when they grow up & meet new people; you start to understand things the way they are. And eventually you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see the things the way you do, nor they try to see it or understand it. All you are left with is the option of keeping the beautiful memories and move on in life. 

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It’s then you understand the true meaning of Life. The lessons taught to us from time to time. There are things in life that we don’t want to happen but in the end those things happen and we have to accept them. There are things we do not want to know about but we end up learning them and one of the most important lesson that is taught to us is there are people in our lives we can’t live without but eventually we have to let go of them.
Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that it will all be okay, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. You will have to remind yourself of the fact that the things and people around you have changed and you are left with no option other than letting go and move on. Yes, its going to be a hard decision and you’re gonna feel alone, lonely, in pain, hurt but just hold on to it for a while because that’s what is good for you and who knows tomorrow might turn out to be the bestest day of your life?