Denial or Acceptance?

He sat in shock by the pain of betrayal and speratation as his eyes filled with tears. Looking around the empty room, he thought its best to sit here and watch his word burn. Razors to wrist, the fan and the rope or the traffice on the roads, all had crossed his mind.

He was on the verge of meltdown but before he could there were questions in his mind he wanted answers to.  He wanted to know if it was that easy for her to walk away. He wanted to stare into her eyes and know if it is hurting her ,taking her breath away like his. But that moment was long gone. “Please tell me that i cannot love you anymore”, the last he could say before she left. Broken, hurt, adandoned, just watching his life wash away. The pain was excruciating, felt like it was crushing his soul.

But she was gone forever, leaving nothing but the memories. Memories that he will drag, memories that will haunt him forever.

 

आँखों में नमी थी , दिल में कमी
हम मुस्कुराते रहे फिर भी
क्युकी उनके चेहरे पर हंसी थी

 

And in the end, it’s not so bad…

And really, in the end,
it’s not so bad.

Maybe Iam dying quicker than the most,
or maybe I am dying right on time.
and people’s hearts are heavy
just like mine.

They’ll keep us anchored to the world
when life threatens to wash us away.

We are all ships lost at the sea,
and the northern star doesnt always
reign where we can see.

I might be sinking but atleast this life
will have filled my bones right.

I can now leave knowing
the universe left its mark on me.

In the end,
it’s not so bad.

At all..

The Lone Traveller

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I believed, but you didn’t understood,
And so dull I was, still to be good.

And then there was no end to streaming tears,
That first one came down, blurring everything that appears.

With memories empty, with experience null,
With vapid eye balls meaningless and dull.

As you took more than what you left,
Now I am a tired traveller of my sun bereft.

All I can feel are the changes in my life,
Sometimes peace, and sometimes strife.

Lost to myself & the world; here I am all alone,
Carving her name on this marble stone.

Vain was the struggle in my mental net,
Seem’d my spirit daring me to forget!!!

© – Aman Sharma

That feeling…

Have you ever felt that urge,
checking your phone every passing hour.
That rise in heartbeat when it rings,
with a new hope that its him…

That cold pain I your chest,
as if there’s something crushing.
Trying to turn around and have some rest,
And all you could do is huffing…

Have you ever felt that urge,
to just run away from everything.
Somewhere deep down far,
where no one knows who you are…

The lone winter nights with glorious dreams,
inside the blanket with the eyes that weep.
In my ears the infinite silence screams,
slowly shall we smoothly pass away in sleep…

Copyrights – Aman Sharma

I am Trying…

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Its been a while I am trying,
to figure out what’s wrong;
All these years I’ve been crying,
trying to figure out where I belong…

Here I am standing amidst the storm,
storm of pain, guilt and misery;
With a Lil hope that my dreams might transform,
waiting for someone to solve this mystery.

Its been a while I am lying,
pretending & smiling for the world;
But on the inside I am dying,
While round the ratling thunder hurled…

And here I am still trying,
to figure out my purpose of life;
And then I stop to listen to this sighing,
trying to understand the bitter and ceaseless strife…

Copyrights – Aman Sharma