That feeling…

Have you ever felt that urge,
checking your phone every passing hour.
That rise in heartbeat when it rings,
with a new hope that its him…

That cold pain I your chest,
as if there’s something crushing.
Trying to turn around and have some rest,
And all you could do is huffing…

Have you ever felt that urge,
to just run away from everything.
Somewhere deep down far,
where no one knows who you are…

The lone winter nights with glorious dreams,
inside the blanket with the eyes that weep.
In my ears the infinite silence screams,
slowly shall we smoothly pass away in sleep…

Copyrights – Aman Sharma

I am Trying…

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Its been a while I am trying,
to figure out what’s wrong;
All these years I’ve been crying,
trying to figure out where I belong…

Here I am standing amidst the storm,
storm of pain, guilt and misery;
With a Lil hope that my dreams might transform,
waiting for someone to solve this mystery.

Its been a while I am lying,
pretending & smiling for the world;
But on the inside I am dying,
While round the ratling thunder hurled…

And here I am still trying,
to figure out my purpose of life;
And then I stop to listen to this sighing,
trying to understand the bitter and ceaseless strife…

Copyrights – Aman Sharma

I was trying to tell you I was not okay.
The pause I took to make sure that I don’t spill the truth.
The way my eyes roamed around like lost marbles.
The way goosebumps lingered around my skin like hives.
And I couldn’t keep my feet planted to the ground.
Keeping my hands in a fist inside my sweater pocket.
To try and sustain myself and hide my sweaty palms.
You only listened to the fake words that slipped out of my lips.
I guess no one ever told you that sometimes words don’t mean a thing.

Moving on…

I must admit, moving on was tough. It was like killing a part of yourself and be someone you are not. “How are you feeling now”, someone asked. It feels like someone has erased 2 years of my life. At one end, I am happy that I am no longer in pain or hurt. However, at the same time there is a part of me trying to remember all that I have forgotten. It was like ripping a piece of your heart out and keeping it in a locker. You have the key but you are afraid of opening it and feel all those memories and emotions that you are trying to forget.

My heart is now broke but I am smiling. Smiling like everything is OK. My eyes are dry and a sense of sorrow is there. I wish it was that easy for me to move on, just like you did. You have caused enough pain and so do I. Now it’s time to mend it all and time to let go. But now it’s over and we can’t live the past. The past full of never ending care, emotions and unconditional love.

Liebster Blog Awards

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Heya!! Its been a while since I received the nomination for the Liebster Blog Awards. Though I tried posting this blog on my previous blogging platform couple of times but I wasnt able to, due to some issues and now I am doing this here. 🙂 First of all thanks a ton to my great friend Hitakshi Bawa (http://hitakshibawa.weebly.com/)  who considered my blogging skills good enough and and gave me this honor.
 
Well, i know what these awards were to some extent but never gave full attention. (I regret not paying attention to them) Okay!! So lemme give you a brief about Liebster nominations:-

The Liebster Award is given to up and coming bloggers who have less than 200 followers. So, what is a Liebster?  The meaning: Liebster is German and means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome. Isn’t that sweet? Blogging is about building a community and it’s a great way to connect with other bloggers and help spread the word about newer bloggers/blogs.

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Rules and Regulations:- 1. Acknowledge the nominating blogger.
2. Answer the questions the nominating blogger has created for you.
3. List 10 bloggers who you believe deserve your recognition
4. Post 10 questions for the nominees to answer.
5. Let all of the bloggers know about their nomination.
6. No Tag Back

 

So Here are my answers to Hitakshi’ s Questions:-

1. What’s your favorite way to get exercise? 

Morning run in the park.

 

2. What does a perfect day look like to you?

A day where I can be with my family, friends and do all my work on time is perfect for me.

 

3. If you could go for a run with a celebrity, who would you pick?
Shahrukh Khan of course.

 

4. What made you choose the name of your blog?

Well to be honest, all the good ones were already taken and while searching for the name of my blog my friend came to meet me and after seeing the condition of my room, she shouted you’re such a mess and thus the name came. Messedme.

 

5. What would you want for your last meal?

Rajma Chawal, Chicken Biryani, Daal Batti  and Chole bhature.

 

6. What’s your favorite website?

Facebook as it gave me such a wonderful friend like you and so many more.

 

7. You can invite any three people in the world to your fantasy dinner party. Who’s coming?

You, Johny Depp, Angelina Jolie.

 

8. What’s one thing people would be surprised to know about you?

I am shy and most of the times I am afraid of speaking to someone I don’t know much; both guy and a girl.

 

9. Books or movie?

Books.

 

10. What do you do to combat stress and anxiety?

I speak everything out. Best way to combat stess and anxiety. I feel so much at peace once done with it.

 

 Pheww!! That’s was a tough task!! And, my nominees are (in no particular order) *drum roll*…
Bhavya Kaushik : http://bhavyakaushik.com/
Himani Goyal : http://www.himanipassion.com/
Prerna Varma : http://prernavarma.blogspot.in/
Shilpi Dutta : http://shilp3005.blog.com/
Gaurav Chawla : http://www.insanespeaks.wordpress.com/
Himadri : http://www.himmilicious.in/
Somya Singh : http://camouflagedwhispers.wordpress.com/
 
And my questions are:-

  1. Describe yourself in one word?
  2. Most embarrassing moment of your life?
  3. What made you start writing blogs?
  4. If you could be someone for one day, no one famous, who would you be and why?
  5. If you were stranded on an island with one person, who that  person you would want to be & why?
  6. The moment you cherish the most?
  7. Task in your to-do list you wish to complete before you die?
  8. At this point of time you miss?
  9. One thing about yourself you wish you could have changed?
  10. If you were to kill someone, what would you prefer:

         Shot in the head.
         Hanged till death.
         Burn alive.
         Poison their drink.

Congratulations to the nominees!!
Write on!! 🙂

“Every night…

“Like every night, I once again sit at my computer staring at the screen. A blank screen stares back at me, harsher than my self-loathing. I want to cry but I can’t cry anymore; the tears have dried up. All I can do is let the sobs come, my shoulders rolling under their weight, breaths ragged, throat sore and eyes dry. “